Hope

Maybe it’s the fresh perspective of the vacation, but today, I don’t want to write about what parts of the mom journey make me sad. Today, I’d much rather talk about HOPE.

My Fear of the Jinx is not gone, but I’m going to be a little brazen today and tell you that if there is one thing that a preemie baby can teach you, it’s hope.

To come from here:

To here:

How can you not have hope? And wonder? And gratitude?

I hate what has happened to Owen and that Kellen has had to watch it. HATE IT. But there has never been a “why me”.

“Why them”? Yes.

“Why me”? No.

I’ve been given the chance to be part of the lives of miracles.

I’m in awe of my sons; one overcoming nearly insurmountable physical hardship and the other keeping his love and self-confidence while being forced to grow up too fast (by the way, one day I’ll tell Kellen’s birth story – his NICU nurses called him “superman” for a reason).

Everything they have been through and their smiles this big.

Kellen and Owen in their first shared bath. Yes, the water is blue, they were using Crayola Bath Dropz

I don’t know what the future holds for either of my sons, but I do have a lot of hope.

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4 thoughts on “Hope

  1. You guys have two wonderful and handsome boys!! I’m also kind of amazed that our daughter Madilyn (3 1/2) has never once shown an ounce of anything but love for Emma – from the second Mady saw her, covered in wires and in a “box”, she just wanted to hold and squeeze her and teach her about princesses. Kids have such unwavering optimism!! Congrats on your amazing kiddos!

    • Thanks Becca. I didn’t realize that Mady was the same age as Kellen. I remember seeing her in the NICU last summer, but little girls always seem older than little boys.

  2. Readng this and seeing those faces gives me hope for my boys. It’s a struggle with Sam in the NICU and Sebastian only 11 months old (will be a year on the 27th) but I am thankful he is to young to remember his little brother in the NICU fighting.

    • Nicole, I didn’t realize your older son was only 11 months old. And you had bed rest. Wow, I can’t even imagine the logistics you’re juggling! Please use our pictures in any way that can help you get through the NICU days. Hugs to you and both your baby boys.

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